already, i'm over highschool.
i did my shit, got it over with.
freshman year i dicked around.
junior and sophmore year went by really fast and that helped.
i didn't bullshit, i didn't get too distracted.
but now i'm just really lazy, i haven't even applied to colleges and i've stopped putting forth so much effort.
the best advice i could give is:
if you hate it so fuckin much, get it over with.
it makes it seem longer when you linger
on the thought of how much you hate the place.
if not that, hating it is just even more motivation.
it was for me.
i hate the thought of being here for more than two more years.
i don't want to have to prove anything to anybody, and i know i want to be happy.
i know i don't want to be like the people who let their failures catch up with them. i really don't want to regret anything.
maybe it doesn't all make sense, and i'm sure as hell not used to sharing this with anyone from my school, i'm not the best at conveying thoughts to other people, especially people i don't know or never talk to.
but i hope everyone finds out who they really are.
shit, i don't think i'm superior for being a senior.
i don't think i'm "grown"
i have a freshman class and i sit next to a girl who reminds me exactly of myself when i was a freshman.
and i know how much i've grown.
i don't care that i am not acknowledged in the halls.
i don't care that i don't have a reputation.
i like that people aren't in my shit at school.
who wants more stress?
even so, i like knowing that i'll accomplish something that they couldn't.
that maybe i have a shred of originality left after four years of wasting my wit on generic/vapid peers.
fuck the best years of your life. it's just four years in a factory
cliché of clichés : we're all robots.
stop praising yourself, stop pitying youself, get off your pedastal, stop putting others before yourself, stop being so damn self-absorbed, self-righteous, conscious of self and others. ignorant, manufactured,callow, narrow-minded, pompous, pretentious, belittling, you're not rebelling, your just on your period. wary. weary, you'll always be tired.
don't let others tell you what to do. stop reading this bullshit ... and read between the lines.